The last five lessons in the Workbook of “A Course in Miracles” are identical, “This holy instant would I give to You. Be You in charge. For I would follow You, certain that Your direction gives me peace.” I use it a lot, only somehow my memory changed it to “This holy instant do I give to You. Be You in charge at my request, for I am certain that Your direction brings me peace.” Whenever I face a crisis, big or little (and they are really all little in the big picture) I automatically pray this prayer, and trust.

 

The most significant time I used it was after my daughter had died from a rapid and mysterious disease, and I was diagnosed two days later with a cholesteotoma in my middle ear that was consuming the small bones in it. I had surgery 10 days later. Two dear friends, Norma Eckroate, and Valerie Hack  joined me, my husband and daughter  pre-surgery to pray with me. I know they said wonderful uplifting things, but my prayer was “This holy instant…..” I was lifted into an absolutely wonderful peaceful place. In fact when the nurses asked if I wanted a shot for anxiety, I laughed, and said that I had none.  To be truthful, I didn’t know if I was going to continue to live, or leave the body. It didn’t matter to me. I trusted the Holy Spirit to make that choice for me. I was going to be unconscious! I loved my family and life, but knew I would love the spirit world too.

 

This year in studying “A Course in Miracles” with Tom and Linda Carpenter, I made a shift in my thinking. Since my 20’s I’ve always been fascinated with Jesus’ comment to Nicodemus “That which is born of flesh is flesh; and that which is born of Spirit is spirit.” (John 3:6) There are two worlds, and we are always choosing our allegiance to one or the other. For almost 63 years, I’ve been dancing with spirit, but choosing form (nicer to say than flesh, really). This year I’ve deepened my shifting, recognizing the Spirit within people, including myself, even though it is the form that is recognizable. I don’t need words to communicate with Spirit, but my little mind seems to need it.

 

I can see miraculous changes in the 3-D world when I align with someone’s spirit, loving them, and offering my spiritual support. Our healing comes from the alignment of our Spirit to the One, and often we need another person who chooses to see us as a perfect spiritual being to remind us of who we are. This earth keeps us engaged with its bells, whistles, disasters, pain, illness, fear, passions, beauty, poverty, wealth, etc.  And I have engaged in all of them, and see them as temporary vignettes in my life. I will continue to live in this world with all of its bell and whistles, but I am careful about the meaning that I give it. The world is wholly neutral, the result of spiritual beings experimenting  with their desires in form. It has no absolute reality, only the meaning that I give to it in that moment. I believe that this was the teaching behind the crucifixion and the resurrection.

 

This is far out stuff and not a popular path, but I’m pursuing it. God is Love, how can we ever really go wrong? I’m finished with my wonderful experiment in teaching Special Ed. Pre-school, and I’m off to the North East to tend to my mother who keeps aggressively fighting cancer of the throat and who has no tongue or voicebox. We are waiting for a call to see if it has again spread  because she is again in pain. More than ever she needs someone to remind her that she is not a body, she is a free, beautiful, holy spirit. To do that compassionately, when she is in pain will be my challenge.

 

How will I know what to do? I’ll pray often, “This holy instant would I give to You. Be You in charge at my request, for I am certain that Your direction brings me peace.”, and I will follow the leads that I get. I’ve found out that spirit moves the universe to respond. I get it directly or I may think I’ve found my direction, only to find that it leads me to a different direction from where I thought I was going, but closer to my goal which is to find “The Peace of God”. That is my yardstick. If something brings me more peace, I must be on the right track.

 

So now the teacher is back in school, and looking forward to seeing a whole new joyous world that quietly waits to be discovered that is parallel to the raucous one that always grabs our attention first. I join with any of you who choose to go there, and welcome those of you who join with me. I will blog when I get something worthy to talk to you about. Blessings Ohana, my family.