Right after meditation today, I was ready to write this blog while I was still fresh in my connection. I got interrupted by my husband coming back from helping some new friends go kayaking, and hearing the story of how the gentleman in the party fell in the water.

 

No worries, try again. I started tuning in again, and reached for my cuppa coffee. Hmm, now it was cold.  So I got up to microwave it a few seconds, wondering what I would be led to share, when I was filled with joy that I LOVE THAT I CAN BE ANYWHERE, AND TUNE IN TO GOD. Or as I taught my Sunday School students, “There is not a spot where God is not!”

 

I don’t have to be in a church, or have someone do the praying for me. I don’t have to be alone, or have a candle burning. I don’t have to position my body in any specific way to be available to feel the joyous presence of connection within. I got it at the microwave. I’m feeling it now, as I write. I felt it in my bed where I was meditating is several different positions. I sent a prayer to the gentleman who fell in the river as my husband was speaking. I mentally blessed my chicken soup and was grateful for it, as I was writing my blog.

 

What I am still working on, is REMEMBERING to tune in, and then keeping still and aware enough keep my mind from interrupting the connection. I used to put up angels all over my home in North Carolina to remind me to ask the angels for help, and to remind me that they were there to help. In my home in Kapa’a, I have pictures, statues, or representations of various deities, and the Aramaic Lord’s Prayer that Jesus supposedly taught. I shared it some time ago, but will do so again, because that prayer more than anything (right now) refocuses me to what I really want from my connection with Beloved. If it helps you too, great. If not, find something that will. The 3-D world is always screaming for our attention. A little anti-dote reminder of our True Selves, and True World can’t hurt. Peace to all.

 

 

Oh, shimmering and eternal Presence illuminating all!

 

We restore our holy union with you by breathing Your holy Breath.

 

The penetrating rays of Your Power and Beauty melt our rigidities, and We are now receptive to Your vision for us.

 

We are surrendered to Your wondrous design as our mystical union infuses our earthly forms with the power of your Light.

 

The Infusion of Your nurturing Wisdom will now carry us through the sacred moments of this day.

 

Just as your Light’s infusion dissolves our hidden fears, we extend and share this Light so that others, too, can dissolve their hidden fears.

 

Your streaming Rays of Wisdom and Power release us from all forgetfulness that leads to the constrictions of useless fears.

 

Now! Your illumined stream of Radiant Light is embodied, and Your presence is here as ‘us’, carrying me in Your stream of Grace from gathering to gathering.

 

This truth is sealed in our hearts, with unwavering

commitment.

[as taught by Maria Lawrence from www.shanticrystal.com

Jay Hammer DVD www.wordofmastery.com

All right now, I’m retraining my my mind as quickly as my resistances will allow me to recognize that this world we live in as a figment of our collective imaginations, and that the truth lies within us all as our pure incorruptible loving spirits.  But I have to tell you, that it sometimes makes me squirm inside.  O.K., so it is my ego that is squirming, not Me.

 

Yesterday it happened. I was at a lovely luncheon hosted by my former (retired) boss. Another former co-worker was there. The conversation turned to planning for our retirement, and how well we were ready to meet our advancing age. We raised a handicapped daughter, and weren’t able to put away much. But our philosophy is also that we live in the now, and in the abundance of the Love that we are. I bought my son a house. It is his inheritance. He’s blowing it, but the decision was made to support him when he needed it in his life. It was an adventure buying a little house in Lubbock, Texas, and fixing it up some.

 

My “boss” lovingly scolded me, “But you’ve got to take care of yourself! You can’t expect others to.” Hmmm. Yes, I have some saved, and have lost quite a bit of what I have invested. Do I explain that I believe that my body exists to serve my spirit, and when I am done, I will lay this body aside like compost on a garden bed, so that other flowers may grow? I mentioned that, and she accepted my faith, but not that I don't have a plan. 

 

Do I mention that I had a father who saved for his retirement all his life, and died 5 years before he planned to retire? At times I even get the urge to give up everything and go to a Mother Teresa healing center, or just hit the road to prove to myself that Spirit will provide, as long as I am serving Spirit. I’ve gone places and sent money to folks when I felt guided to support others in this life. I wonder if she’s ever just written a substantial check to an old friend who had a stroke, and lost his job due to a tanking economy. It was a moment of great joy for me. I just wasn't thinking of it as 2 months' utilities down the line. When the economy dipped, I was led to a good teaching job, with good benefits that allowed me to send money to some in need, and go to my mother in her time of illness. Not to mention those belly laughs I get  in between the demanding work, and the hugs we get from God in little bodies every day.

 

I keep my ego in tow most of the time, but I had doubts after lunch. Maybe I should plan more. ACIM says plan less, receive more. As if I needed some reassurance,  I looked in my Inbox and found an email from Carroll Wright, Ph.D sent last month about how when we begin to  truly believe the Truth, this world responds. This story is an excerpt. May it brighten your day!

 

“One metaphysician suddenly found herself encircled by a beautiful light in a deeply dark night the instant after she had said, ‘The darkness shall be light, for God is the light of the darkness. I need no other light.’ A realizing sense of the mighty truth she was telling threw its own light around her and she plainly saw her way. There is the prophecy that when a great company of men and women understand that their spiritual understanding is God, the city where they dwell shall have no need of the light of the sun, nor of the moon.”

 

Lesson 253 in” A Course in Miracles” Is entitled “My Self is ruler of the universe.” Now that’s a very large thought to think. As if that isn’t bad enough it continues with,”It is impossible that anything should come to me unbidden by myself. Even in this world it is I who rule my destiny. What happens is what I desire. What does not occur is what I do not want to happen.” That’s a huge concept to accept.

 

How could I have wanted my mother to have cancer, or wanted a tumor in my ear that lead to two surgeries, a reconstruction and lots of time and money spent dealing with it? And the deepest challenge I’ve faced was losing a daughter. How could it have been what I desired? I can tell you what I’ve processed so far. The Course teaches us to ask about anything: “What is this for?” I ask my self that frequently. The ear situation helped me decided to leave a job that wasn’t in my best interest. Oh I was getting guidance to leave it, but I wasn’t listening. Hmm, and where was the tumor? In the ear, blocking my hearing. Great Clue Annaleah, well done. Now my hearing is much better, and I’m truly listening more.

 

Co-creating illness and death of another is harder to wrap my head around, but I’ve come to this thought. I’ve shared truth about Who we are and what the body is for, with anyone who chooses to hear my ideas. We are Spirit, and our highest calling is for the Spirit that we are to be given dominion of our bodies. But people have to ask that scary question, “What will happen if I really let go?” It is out of our ego’s control, and it can be a terrifying thought. So we continue to repeat the patterns that are familiar, and we stagnate a bit until we actually agree that we need a change, and then something comes into our lives that forces us to change. We usually don't see that we had a hand in it.

 

I believe that God is Love, and loves me, and knows far better what is good for me than I seem to, or I wouldn’t get down on my knees and ask for help every time the going gets rough. But now I’m getting older, and I want to know what my life would be like if God was running it. I’ve had a good 62 years. I feel blessed. Now I want the full deal. I’ve actually wanted it for some time, and what’s happening is that I’m becoming less attached to about everything. I know in my bones that this world isn’t real, and that there is something more. It makes it easier to let go.

 

But I know that I haven’t completely let go yet. There’s more. Intellectually I’m ready to go the distance, but since it hasn’t happened yet, I know that a part of me is still holding on to life as I know it now. And that brings us back to being close to those who are in pain or dying. I’m able to look at their choices with less attachment. I know that they are not their bodies. They are way more than that.

 

That can be helpful to someone in pain or dying. I’m there to serve them in their choice of lifestyle, without wanting them to conform to mine, and maybe, just maybe they can get the idea that they need not stay around in a body that isn’t serving them, and that there could be a whole new fabulous adventure waiting for them as soon as they let go of the body, or attachment to it as being a certain way.

 

My daughter appeared in a vision to me standing by my bed a week before she died saying, “I’m in charge. Don’t worry. You’ve done a good job, and I have to go now.” She was 23. I tried to convince myself that it was just a dream. … But she was done with this life’s experience in that body, and let go for another kind of experience. She waited for her brother to arrive from Texas, and died  ½ hour later. Seems like she was in charge to me. So please stay tuned for changes that may occur in my life, as I let go more.   And I would love to hear about yours.                                           

I just was sent this on Facebook from a dear friend in Black Mountain, NC. It is the Dalai Lama's truth, pure and simple. Not having a religious dogma prevents a lot of conflict amongst religions from occurring.

I hope that you will enjoy this.

"My true religion, my simple faith is in love and compassion. There is no need for complicated philosophy, doctrine, or dogma. Our own heart, our own mind, is the temple. The doctrine is compassion. Love for others and respect for their rights and dignity, no matter who or what they are - these are ultimately all we need." --Dalai Lama

 

I'm sharing the 2nd part of R.A.J's transmission. I love many parts of it, and one of them is how memory is "dead". Spirit is alive, and that is why we need to pray to get Spirit involved in our choices. Hope you enjoy it.:

 

 

So if that's true, why would you insist upon relying upon your own best judgments which are never transformational -- of yourself or others?  Why would you hold onto and energize your pet theories when they've never transformed you?  When they've never caused you to have an entirely new perspective about your world and about your fellowman that causes you to behave toward them differently in ways that what? . . . in ways that cause them, perhaps, to have the same sort of transformational insight about themselves that you have experienced about yourself.

 

You know, religions can give you a lot of rules to follow, a lot of obediences to practice.  But the simple fact is, that what truly means something and what is truly transformational, is when you abandon your attempts at controlling your experience through obediences and through the practices of principles that are, in so many words, head-trips and become part of your self-definition and part of who you think you are because all of that is nothing more than the practice of memory.  And memory is dead!  Memory is not enlivened by the Spirit of Being-and I'm going to say Being with a capital "B"-the  presence of God.

 

The thing is, that everyone gets caught up in a dutiful and insistent practice of memory of who one thinks he is, of the assertion of an independent self that one never ever really was. 

 

And the simple solution to the problems that are the result of such practices is abandoning -- as I've said over and over -- the private independent self-authorizing being that you think you are, and saying, "Father . . .God . . . Holy Spirit, what's the truth here?  How do You see me?  How do you see my fellowman that I'm having difficulty with?  How do you see this situation in the context of God?  I want to know so that I no longer suffer from my ignorance or my misunderstandings.  I want to be filled with the conscious experience of God's Perspective so that I might be transformed and my perceptions might be transformed and brought into harmony with Reality as God is Being It."

 

 "Because you know what?  I want to be transformed by a conscious experience of union with Something greater than I think I am.  I want to have that experience of Spirit -- the lively enlivening Presence of God-that enlivens my doubty pessimistic limited perception of this, that or the other thing, and brightens it up in ways that bring out its eternality instead of its inevitable death.  I want to be renewed.  And I'm beginning to grasp that as long as I'm holding on to my best judgments, my best memories, my pet theories, I'm already in the realm of the memorized -- the dead -- the un-enlivened.  And you know what?  I don't want to hang out there because I know if I do it's going to rub off on me, and I'm going to become un-enlivened and doubty and I'm going to inevitably die, even though Something in me tells me that that's not my Birthright."

 

The two-step:  Well, we can't say enough about it.  We can't emphasize it enough, because it's the way out of the realm and experience of sin, disease and death. 

 

Instead of automatically believing that you think you know what a thing means or you think you know what a thing is, practice that moment of hesitation where you shut up!  And in the silence you say, "Father,"-and what you mean is God, or you mean That which has the infinite perspective, the true perspective -- "Father, Holy Spirit, what is the Truth here?"  Truth with a capital "T," not the truth about your fellowman and what a bastard he is.  That's not the Truth about him.  And that's not going to help you to have a clear-cut explanation of why he is such a bastard and what the proofs are. 

 

You want to know the Truths about him.  You see?  You need God to speak to You and be speaking to the one He knows you Are instead of the one you think you are.  And your fellowman needs the same thing.  Because when that Vision is being used, it lifts you and it lifts your fellowman out of the doldrums, out of the doubtyness, out of the pessimism, out of the on-your-way-t0-the-grave experience.  It inspires, because it illuminates the Spirit of You that God speaks to because God put It there and God Knows It's there.  And you seem to be the only one left out of the loop because you think you are what you think you are . . . and it's a lot less.

 

Now, there's one other aspect of this that I want to share tonight and that is this:  Very often you don't hear God speaking to you because He's not talking to you in the way you expect Him to talk to you.  When He talks to you He doesn't talk to you as though you are the bastard you think you are, or you are not the poor soul that you think you are, or you are not the useless one you think you are, or the unkind one, or the one who can't understand things.  You see?  God Knows You and speaks to you as though you are all that He Is at this very moment enlivening you with, because He is Creating you in every moment out of Himself.

 

God always speaks to you in grander or larger terms than you think of yourself.  Some of you actually put in earplugs, if you will, to avoid hearing God, because you are afraid God is going to speak to who you think you are and that is going to be an unpleasant experience -- He's going to be chastising you, He's going to be judging you, He's going to be taking away your good because you no longer deserve it.  And that's why what I'm saying tonight is so important.  God is not speaking to who you think you are. 

 

God is speaking to Who He Knows you Are and He Knows you Are His direct expression in this moment . . . in this moment . . . in this moment . . . in this moment.  You see? 

 

"Behold I make all things new."* 

 

"Behold I make all things new . . . behold I make you new . . . I make you new . . . I make you new.  And I make you out of what I Am and so I Know what you Are made of, and I Know what the Truth is about You and It's much more than you think you are.  And I want you to experience what you Are.  I want you to experience the more than what you think you are."

 

And so, at the bottom line, it means that when you practice the two-step and you hesitate and you don't act in the world on the basis of your memory and you ask, "Father, what's the Truth here?" so that you might have the Vision that allows you to behave in an en-Spirited way, in a divine way, you will be fulfilling your function and you will be having an experience that far exceeds anything you could have arrive at through your best judgments.

 

What you really want is, not to have to rely upon your best judgments based upon your best thinking, based upon your experience.  You want your judgments-if we're going to call them that-you want your judgments to be living assessments of the Son of God or the Daughter of God that God is Being right there in what you call your sister or your brother or your fellowman or yourself.  That's what you want.  And I'm reminding you that that's something you can ask for everyday, all day long.  And you do not have to get caught in the habit of memory.

 

It's very important.  It's the Truth.  You deserve a lot more than you let yourself have.  And the Father is extending a lot more to you than you're willing to embrace.  And that is because you have forgotten that God is never speaking to who you think you are.  He is speaking to who He Knows you Are because in this moment . . . in this moment . . . in this moment . . . in this moment . . . in this moment . . . in this moment . . . He is Being You, new. 

 

And so He Knows Who you Are and He Knows What you Are and you Are Him Expressed and nothing more-nothing aside from that.  You are His Beloved Son, You are His Beloved Daughter in whom He is well pleased.  And you deserve the experience of that pleasure. 

 

And you know what?  Your fellowman deserves the experience of that pleasure when he's with you.  And you can provide that pleasure by asking of the Father, "What's the Truth here about my fellowman, instead of what I think the truth is about my fellowman?"

 

So, that's all I'm going to talk about tonight.  It's a simple idea, but profound and transformational and if you want to put it in this context, it's the real meaning of religion.

 

I love you . . . and I love you . . . and I love you . . . and I love everyone who has joined us on the Internet. 

 

Abide with what I've shared.  Your practice of it, your letting it happen with you, will be like knocking down the first domino and others will follow.  It's important.  It is transformational.

 

And I look forward to being with you next week.  Thank you.

 

 

My blog today is courtesy of Francis Sporer of Virginia Beach. He forwarded me an email from RAJ, a being channeled by Paul Tuttle in "A Course in Miracles" Study Group. It was lengthy, so I’m just sending a part that is really juicy.  I hope you will enjoy it.

"Good evening.  And welcome to everyone who's joining us on the Internet.
There's one thing I want everyone to consider-one important thing:  We have, for some time, been talking about the two-step.  The two-step, meaning, that instead of assuming that you know what everything means, instead of assuming that you know what the appropriate response is to a situation and just proceeding on the basis of your experience or your best judgments, you instead hesitate.  That's the first step of the two-step:  You hesitate.  You stop your thoughts in midstream.  You stop your automatic response in midstream.
 
And then you take the second step.  You ask, "What is the truth here?" You ask the question of That which knows the answer, which is either God or the Holy Spirit.
 
THY will be done...

In other words, you abandon your independence, your independent action, your assertion of a self that has a capacity to be an author in its own right.  You abandon that.  After all, the simple fact is, that whenever anyone gets into trouble it's because they've listened only to themselves . . . right?  Or they've listened to someone else who's listening only to themselves.
 
And always, any form of ultimate solution to a problem arises out of, one way or another, doing the two-step, where you abandon self-assertive, authoritative expression of will, and you say, "Father, in spite of what I think, in spite of my best judgments, what is the truth here?  What is really going on here, divinely speaking? What is the truth about my Brother, divinely speaking?  What is the answer to this problem I have gotten myself into as a result of listening only to myself?"
 
Whenever one arrives at that point and genuinely listens, genuinely allows in something other than his or her own judgments, God speaks-the Holy Spirit speaks-and you hear.  And the result is far different from any assertive actions you might engage in, or might have engaged in based upon your best judgments.  And the result is always transformational.  It changes you.
 
Now the question is, why?  And the answer is the fundamental idea that I want to share tonight and that I want to leave with you so that you may contemplate it and let it deeply register with you:  The reason God's answers are transformational is because God is never speaking to who you think you are. God is never speaking to who you think you are. God is always speaking to who HE KNOWS you Are.
 
To God, you are His beloved Son in whom He is well pleased.  You are His  beloved Daughter in whom He is well pleased.  The reason He knows this is because you are His Self-expression.  You are His off-spring.  You are the embodiment of all that He is: His nature, His character, His wisdom, His integrity, His incapacity to be confused.  In other words, His capacity to be single-minded, therefore clear,  therefore incapable of generating conflict.
 
This is what you Are.  And this is Who He speaks to.
 
And so His Vision of you, which is the Truth about you, becomes conveyed in your very being, in your present experience of who you think you are.  And as that registers with you, it imbues you with new energy, with new nature -- new  to you -- different  from that which was typical of who you thought you were.
 
And so you experience rejuvenation, you experience healing, you experience transformation, you experience a perspective that changes the way you confront your world.  All of this because God is not speaking to who you think you are, but to who He Knows you Are.