Hi loves,

I was just going to send these to my sister for my Mom, but they might be interesting for you as well.  They are smothered in love from me. I guess I need to briefly state the Course's premise: God, our beloved Creator, is love. Love wanted to love someone, so created us, his holy child. There is actually only one large One of us. God loves us all equally, because we are not separated. It seems like it, because we have different bodies, but inside we are all joined as Perfect Love. 

We come to earth occasionally to express and learn about love, but the mind we use on earth is very limited, and has no memory of our true selves.(Remember Jesus kept saying, "That which is flesh is flesh. That which is Spirit is Spirit.") We get into some serious trouble here, but what can give us peace is that this world is like a dream. Just as we awaken from a nightmare, so when we finish with this world, we return to the truth that we really are Love. Everything is forgiven and forgotten, except for the parts of our earth trip where we experienced love.

Also, I wrote once about hell, and how I said that I didn't believe in it as the world thinks of it. The original word was more like "oblivion", or nothingness. Well I had another "aha" that came to me. In Genesis, when God was creating everything, there was no mention of hell. A
loving Father would never want to throw a beloved child into an eternal fire pit of torture. I believe that was man made to attempt to control people.

Anyway, here goes:

"Father, Your Name is Love and so is mine. Such is the truth. And can the truth be changed by merely giving it another name? The name of fear is simply a mistake. Let me not be afraid of truth today."  Workbook lesson 282

"We thank you Father, for Your guarantee of only happy outcomes in the end. Help us not interfere, and so delay the happy endings You have promised us for every problem that we can perceive; for every trial we think we still must meet."   (Workbook Lesson 292)

"Your Son is safe wherever he may be, for You are there with him. He need but call upon Your Name, and he will recollect his safety and Your Love, for they are one. How can he fear or doubt or fail to know he cannot suffer, be endangered, or experience unhapiness, when he belongs to You, beloved and loving, in the safety of your fatherly embrace?"  Workbook Lesson 244

The following prayer is good to do before meditation, that is, being still, and waiting for God's response within your heart.
"Father, I come to You today to seek the peace that You alone can give. I come in silence. In the quiet of my heart, the deep recesses of my mind, I wait and listen for Your Voice. My Father, speak to me today. I come to hear Your Voice in silence and in certainty and love, sure You will hear my call and answer me." workbook lesson 221

 

The following prayer I latched on to early in my studies, because I would always feel guilty for everything. The prayer is one of reliance on the Holy Spirit to make things right.

I must have decided  wrongly, because I am not at peace.
I made the decision myself, but I can also decide otherwise.
I want to decide otherwise, because I want to be at peace.
I do not feel guilty, because the Holy Spirit will undo all the consequences of my wrong decision if I will let Him.
I choose to let Him, by allowing Him to decide for God for me.   (Text p. 83)

 

My “Mom trip” was a lovely success, although I had to deal with life and death issues. It was so smooth: things flowed perfectly, and whenever I had doubts or worries, I did give it to Holy Spirit to work out, and the events just occurred peacefully. Oh I did have an ego attack or 3, but corralled them in before there was much damage!  I thought that I would be tending to my mother’s care needs of feeding her through the G-tube, nebulizing her stoma, and tending to that care, and also helping keep her spirits buoyed up while also gently reminding her of the truth of who she is, a perfect expression of loving Spirit who is choosing to spend time on an explore in the 3-D world. Of all the things we accomplished, I think that was the most important, and I believe she felt it. One has to feel the love. Thinking it just leaves one empty.

 

But there was much more! I flew to NY, picked up her car and tended to her house, then drove the car to Cape Cod where she was staying with my sister. I was going to take her back to NY, her beloved home for a two week visit. Surprise! We go to Boston to see about this new lump Mom has……. Oh, the cancer is back. Yes, she wants surgery.  Gotta do NY now Mom. So we drive down the very next day where she is absolutely cherished by dear friends in all of her hang-outs, and sung to in church. We'd done it in 3 days.

 

Every driving trip was fun, even when we got stuck in traffic. We were always on time. We connected to everyone that was important, without forcing anything.

 

I stayed at Beacon House in Boston while Mom was in Mass. Eye and Ear Infirmary. We were there 8 days. Steadily she improved. I got to visit with family, which I don’t usually get to do. I had some time to myself at nights. I love having time alone. I even visited Newbury St. where I worked 40 years ago at a basement  photo lab. It’s been cemented over. Saw the Boston Gardens, Quincy Market, Swan Boats, State Building, and a few fun restaurants with my sisters when each came for a night.

 

Mom and I were ambulanced to her nursing home in Cape Cod. She had been there for the previous surgery. Admission went very well, and she did a little better every day. We had to return to Mass Eye and Ear to have her staples removed. There she got the news that when they cut out some of her jaw, they found that her carotid artery had cells on it, which the biopsy revealed to be malignant. But radiation could help. Little Mama looked liked a deer frozen in headlights. I told the doc that we’d call him.

 

Mama curled up in the fetal position for a long time…this vibrant, intelligent, witty, caring lady was facing her upcoming death. I comforted her in every way I could, and prayed to know what to say. Thankfully, I’d spent the time earlier, reminding her of her Truth, and had even brought up that we might want to research Hospice the day before the "news", and she agreed. While she slept I got some Hospice brochures.

 

The next day the Speech therapist asked Mom how she felt about the news. She typed that she “accepted it”. What did that mean? “No more treatments, surgeries or prodding.” I asked if we could begin an alternative food therapy, and she again typed “No more treatments.” THEN WHAT DO YOU WANT TO EAT? “Nothing.” Egad! I told her that we’d need help with that one. We’ve always honored her requests, but I was going to consult with Hospice, and I did.

 

Now she is back at my sister’s, receiving Hospice services, and eating. I’m in Hawaii for a few weeks. We are both in a pleasant routine, doing healthy, loving, fun things, and waiting. What will come up next? We’ve had lots of little turns in the road, but have always found our way.  I return about Aug. 7^th. It will be interesting, and full of love. In the meantime I’m enjoying my family at home, and Hawaii’s grace.

Peace out.